people listen better when no words are said.

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

So why is it now?

The last thing on her mind was growing up

I can't live with myself. So stay with me tonight.

I thought, maybe things would change.
In not one situation, but many.
I guess it's true when they say, people don't change.
It's true, they don't change... They just get better at hiding their flaws.
Not for long though.


I don't know how much more of this I can take.
I'm about ready to give up the one thing I want more than anything(Besides my Jesus), because of you.

For that, I don't know if I could forgive you.

I hate that I'm an otter lion personality.
I hate that I'm so unorganized, conceited, loud.
But mostly, I hate that I have the desire to be a leader.
I mean, I suck.
In so many ways it'd take forever to list them all.
(that's usually a joke I say to Kenny when he asks what's wrong with me, but right now, it's not really a joke).
I have to be the stupid strong one all the time, and all these people look up to me, and I hate it.
If you really knew me.


He and I react to things in very much the same way.
We feel hurt, and worthless, but we will still make sure everyone around us is happy first.
Though, we will show you that you hurt us.
Only, if we want you to know.
If you really knew me.

It was nice, you know, having someone love you. Someone who showed it, someone who really cared.
Someone, who wasn't so caught up in themselves, they stopped to help others.
I don't think I know anyone as caring, and giving as he.
He'd give you the world to make you smile, just once, even it's for just a second.
I wish, I was good enough.

walls are gonna have holes tonight.

I'm sorry.




I feel kind of, full of failures at the moment.
It's okay, I'll fix it.

If I could save everyone around me, don't doubt for a second that I would.

why
is it
that
girls have such negative self images
why
is everyone
depressed
and a cutter

5:49pm
why are you talking that way

5:50pm
or bulimic
or anorexic
self critical
druggies
I
don't
get it
and I'm
talking like this
because
I
want to

5:51pm
I think people get down
because they don't know how to move on
or they don't want to
if something bad happened in their life

5:51pm
yeah
but its not even that
its
how we treat each other
everyone is so mean
to everyone else
with back handed comments
and they don't understand the constant sting

It's comments like "you're eating again?"
"Are you sure you want seconds?"
"Could you just listen for once?"

When there's nowhere else to turn
All your bridges have been burned
Feels like you've hit rock bottom
Don't give up it's not the end
Open up your heart again
When you feel like no one
Understands where you are

Someone loves you even when you don't think so don't you know you got
Me and Jesus by your side through the fight you will never be alone on your own you got me and Jesus

After all that we've been through
Be now you know I've doubted too
But every time my head was in my
Hands you said to me
Hold on to what we got
This is worth any cost so
Make the most of life
That's borrowed
Love like there's no tomorrow

I
want
God
to
help
me
save
people


I can crash and burn, I don't care.
If I'm helping people around me, that's all that matters.

This wouldn't be so hard if you could stop thinking about yourself for two seconds.
I can't stand how you've always needed all the attention.
That stupid paper in English makes me feel like crap.
But I don't know how to write anything happy.