Stupid stupid mistakes. Leading to worse and worse mistakes. All coming down to horrible consequences and regrets.
It was a stupid mistake.
I feel horrible. I feel guilty.
And now, I feel even worse.
When I feel bad, everyone feels the need to make it worse.
When I feel okay, it has to be taken down, too.
"If you ask God for forgiveness for it, it'll be okay Meg. You made a mistake. And you regret it. You're human, we all make mistakes"
It's just so frustrating that everyone can get away with stuff. MAJOR stuff.
And the moment I mess up once, everyone cracks down on me.
Makes me feel horrible.
I know its part of representing God.
I just want some slack sometimes.
We do all make mistakes.
I try harder not to.
But I still do.
I just want everyone to leave me alone once in a while.
I can feel guilty all by myself.
I don't need you to tell me to feel it.
I am so disappointed in myself.
What on earth was I doing? What on earth was I thinking?
I guess I'm just dealing with so much stuff, that I'm not. Or haven't.
I haven't been thinking.
I'm sorry. My life is falling to pieces.
I'll try to keep it all together for all of you.
Because apparently thats all that matters.
As long as I hold it all together for everyone else, it'll all be fine.
It doesn't matter what I'm struggling with. I have to keep it together for you guys.
I love Brian Tassey tremendously.
I love Michi Tassey a lot as well.
But mostly, I love Kenny. And I'm sorry I almost messed that up.
1 comment:
You'll be alright dearie. Just breathe, it'll be okay.
You've done all you can for now, just let it go and don't think about it, you'll feel much better.
This'll blow over soon enough.
Just remember to smile. :)
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