no passing zone.

I think I could really end up liking you.
If only that boy wasn't trying so hard.
Let's put Meg and him next to each other on every ride.
Okay Kev, I get it, you want me and him to date, just chill out a bit, okay?


I didn't really pay much attention to that movie. More to the warmth that was there...
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Chill out Meg, okay?
No point in forcing this.
At all.

Oh canobie lake park. I went there for the first time ever yesterday. It was nice.

I enjoyed going to the river with you two on Friday(:
It was so relaxed, and it was the first time I've been completely myself in a while.

It's kind of funny how much we have in common.
"That hat would look nice in my hat collection."
"You have a hat collection?!"
"Yeah, and a scarf collection."
" Woahhh, me too!"
This could be going the way I wanted it to.
Or maybe it's going the completely wrong way.
We'll see soon enough, now won't we?



"meg, you don't have a comfort zone do you?"
ha, nope, not really. Except for my mind. You were the one taught me that.
It takes a lot to make me uncomfortable.

God is good.

He likes Chocolate, and I like fruit.

I'm really happy right now.
Like the happiest I've been in a while.
And it's all because of Hugo Lin.
He gets me, more than anyone.
I feel like I can be myself around him.
And we can just talk and we know the other will understand.
We have the same conclusions, based on different circumstances.
I love how we can go from serious conversations, to laughing so hard I almost cry.
Just walking around talking about everything with him, makes me happy.


I'm so happy right now.
I'm gonna sink so low soon.


And I can never date Hugo, Taylor.
That would be bad.



I think I like you.
Probably only because he told me it would be a bad idea.
But there's more to it than that...


The name of this blog is based on a story Hugo told me about his Mom's friend.
He had asked her when he was younger why she and her husband were getting a divorce.
Her response was that he liked chocolate, and she liked fruit.
That didn't mean much to Hugo then.
But if you think about it, she was basically saying that they were so different it didn't work anymore.
Ahhh, the simplicity of talking to children.
That had such a broad meaning that she only used because she was talking to a five year old.
But it makes so much sense...



"You waited too long to tell me, you never really knew me at all."- fearless by neurosonic


"I won't sit here and wait
For you to take me home"

I'm done. I feel like you never really knew me.
No one really knows me.
I don't know me.
I've been trying to find who I am, but she's a long way off.
I'm done waiting.
I had a breakdown.
And if everyone disregarded the blog from last night that'd be great.
I'm over it.
I feel like I can move on now, and I may have started the process...

No, no, I'm not okay.

I thought maybe when you said we wouldn't go out again, I'd get over you.
I was terribly mistaken.
I can't do this.
It's safe to say I still really like you.
And it's getting kind of frustrating, all these guys like me, but none of them are you.
I wouldn't say yes, unless they were you.
I'm pretty much completely pathetic.
You have total control over me.
You're the one person who would never take advantage of that, though.
I just don't really know what to do.
The fact that I still can't believe I got someone as amazing as you.
I'm just... in pain.
I need to call you. But I'm so sick of breaking down on the phone with you.
I just, don't know anymore.
I just wanna move on. But I don't know how.
How do you give up the one person you know is supposed to be in your life?
When someone has an answer to this for me, I'll be amazed.

my stomach hurts.
And so does my head.
I wish you'd call, so I don't have to.

And no, it's not for the better.
Not in the least.
I was just becoming happy.
And then everything fell apart again.
I wish you could fix it again.
But I know you can't, nor do you want to.

I hate myself so much right now.

I need to go throw up for a while.

Maybe I'm better off on my own.

ha, just kidding.
I'm not good at being by myself.


Concert tomorrow.
Those make me so happy.
No need to explain, most people will get it.
And those who don't, don't deserve to.

I don't know why I even bother talking about/to you anymore.
It all just hurts in the end.
So make up your mind where we stand, because I'm tired of running around.


So apparently Zack Black likes me.
Why do things like this happen to me?


I'm glad I saw you after school today.
I wanted to apologize to you again.
But I was about to have a breakdown, and didn't need you to see that.
You gave me a hug, which I was not expecting, but it helped in the oddest way.
It's almost like you knew...


I kept getting asked if I was high today, just because I kept passing out in all my classes.
I just feel so dazed.
I've been sleeping a lot lately.
And it's not even because I want to, I just end up falling asleep.
Something's wrong. I don't know what it is yet.
But it's there.


I prayed today.
For once without being reminded.
No one told me to pray for something. I just did.
I don't know what triggered it, but it had something to do with you.
p.s. this isn't who everyone thinks it is(:

and then there was just you and me.

Thank you everyone who wished me a happy birthday(:
And thanks for the cards, cookies, and cds:D
Oh, and balloons, especially Olivia Gunther singing 99 red balloons to me(:

There was only really one person who I was waiting for to say happy birthday to me.
He saw me, and then didn't say it.
An hour later though, he did.
I think he forgot.
Oh well. It still meant a lot to me.
(:

I still have to go out later...



Chris came over for a while.
It made me happy.
It made me sad too though.
He asked me to sign his year book.
Said I was the first person to, and that I get my own page.
I had to keep it happy, because I was about to cry.
You're leaving so soon.
I don't know how I'll make it without you.


I love our little talks.
The ones right after band that last like thirty seconds.
They make me smile. Because in that moment, its like its only you and me.

you overreact to everyone's underreactions.

It's safe to say I'm dreading tonight.
At least Stubear will be here with me.
I missed him.

I always hate when people ask about me and Stuart.
We're best friends, okay? We'll just leave it at that.

I don't want tonight. I don't want my whole family sitting together eating Chinese food. Because everyone knows, that if Josh is there, he won't let me talk.
He has something against me.
Doesn't he know how hard I try everyday?
Doesn't anyone?

It was good spending time with you today. You have no idea how good it felt, to be able to go back to the way we used to be.


I hate when everyone knows when your birthday is.
Watching everyone scream at you " I'll make you a card!"
Even the people you know dislike you. It's almost like they're trying to redeem themselves, just by making you a birthday card.
It's just a birthday, it's not any different than any other day.
I love the fact that only Hugo gets this.
He's the only one who gets me anymore. It's kind of scary how much we think alike now.
"You're starting to sound like me."
Only because I understand now.
I love you. I need you to know that.
I honestly don't know what I would do without you.