Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.

This is so irritating. Why can't anyone let me stay happy? It's almost like people are like OH NO! Megs happy, we have to ruin it for her. I really hope people don't actually think that, it just always works out like that.
And I thought you were one of my best friends. Just goes to show you shouldn't trust everyone.

Mr. Tagalakis. Mr Tags. Mr. T bomb:D and yes I called him all of these in the course of one day.
he definitely already hates me. "marguerite delaney." "call me meg ." "woahhhh snappy."
this semesters gonna be interesting.

so semi was interesting.I love when my best friends overdose on pain killers...

aww honey, I feel bad now...
"heyyy, heyyy baby, I wanna know, if you'll be my girl, unless you're already taken? "
awww, how do you respond to that?
well you say no, but then you feel bad.

um, my mother really approves of you.
and its weird.
she doesn't approve of people...



And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am- iris, by the goo goo dolls.

mariocart, subway, job hunting, and sneaking around(:

my day started at eight thirty, and I sat around until nine thirty, and then was forced to sneak around for an hour and a half. Well, maybe not forced(:
I had fun:D

And then I watched back to the future! WOOOO!
after that, job hunting with my best frienddddd! Then we ventured through the tundra to get to stuarts(:
hahaha dude, his dad and his sister still want me and Stu to date. Why? I don't get it.
And apparently I am the cutest thing ever, and if Stuart's girlfriend was a freshman boy she'd think I was cute. I'm not cute at all. And the last person I want telling me I am, is her.

I found a semi dress! Because Aura is ahhhmazing(:
And I love her very much<3
its kind of a lightish blue.
and its not gonna match, but oh well, I really like it.
:D

No clue what I'm doing tomorrow, besides mid terms, possibly hanging with cool people.
Friday, also hanging with cool people.
Saturday, ditto. And then semi, whoooo.
Sunday, church and then hanging with cool people.
Monday, hanging with one extremely cool person that I miss dearly<3
It's kind of weird that I have this all planned, I never plan more than two days in advance.
Hopefully semi will great, and then I can talk to people about certain things...
:D

"how come you never come see my boy anymore? I tried to do a little love connection with you two."
"dad are you serious?! are you f****** serious?"
actually sir, I'm here everyday after school, and I have no intentions of ever dating your boy.
too bad I can't actually say that to him...


"What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I am the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible"- vulnerable, by secondhand serenade

Say it ain't so, I will not go

I have to put my science notebook together!
>.<


haha, you don't hate me, it definitely seemed like you did.

can't wait for midterms tomorrow...
I have so many plans this week, I don't know how to organize them all!

haha got back from Whitney's a little while ago. She drives me crazy.
<3

I need to get a dress for semi!
:/
this is gonna be disastrous. I have no idea what looks good on me...
I was so freaked out that I'd have to choose between semi and my small group.
dudeeee, I don't know what I would have chosen.
either way I wouldn't be happy...
I'm glad I don't have to choose(:

woooo. I have no life.


turn the lights off, carry me home- blink-182, all the small things

ode to whitney

Whitney is fat, and she doesn't reply to my every whim:D
I am fat and need food. She should understand that.
shes like double my weight.
And plus she wants to eat her weight in cheez its. I'm the fat one? don't think so.

So she's basically my best friend, even though all I do is make fun of her.
(:
we're the biggest losers I have ever met.
How do we get older guys again?
it doesnt make any sense!
maybe back fat and stubby hairs turn guys on? :D
all we do is sit on her bed for hours, and consume our weight in cheez its and pop tarts.
She also belches a lot. :DDD


Just chewin on the titty fat
Pursuin the kitty cat,
droolin on her pretty hat
Playing pool and pitty pat,
stay in school
Kiddies, brats, instead of spring tools and shitty gats
Layin cool, where they at?
Same jewels as silly rats rulin with gritty stacks
Coolin where the cliques be at
It's no time for chitty chat,
fool V pity that
Follow your instincts
I told her time and time again not to swallow pink drinks
I guess it's just how the hollow link clinks
V, the fink who made the chink in the mink wink
They say he need a shrink
On the brink to pipe it when her sink made a stinky stink
Instead he asked her for some paper and some ink
Coulda flipped it longer 'cept the beat was rather rinky-dink
Still workin out the kinks
Everytime he thinks his third eye blinks
It must be in your blood like zinc
Glassy-eyed V put your CD on jinx- viktor vaughn.
Where do we find these songs?!

btw, our personalities suck, and we're obese. We shouldn't have friends.


whitney sucks.
(:

let me run.

Church was cancelled today.
so bored...


please stop making me face my fears.
There's a reason I block these things out.
I'm not ready to see myself for what I really am.
I'm scared of what I'll find.

As for what I told you last night, I don't want that to effect anything.
That was the first time I let myself think about it, and I didn't know what to say. And I think it made you more upset than you'll ever let on.

um, yesterday, I hung out with my older sister, at the movies, for six hours. my niece is adorable, but she's such a handful, haha.
I saw the unborn, it was lame as far as scary movies go.
hahaha. I love my sisters fiances lesbian sister...
"are you sure you don't want some meat?" I'm all set, thanks...

I neeeed to do something very soon.


Caught my breath on my way home.
Couldn’t stop that spinning force.
I fell into you- in the flowers by animal collective.

I love three day weekends.

my weekend is gonna be full of sleeping and eating.
possibly hanging with people if I feel like it.
I feel the need to hang out with people I've just met(:
are there any good shows this weekend?
if there are, does anyone wanna go, hahaha.

church on sunday, possibly free after that?

whooo midterm week is coming up. I'm gonna bomb(:
I am a Deutschbag(:
if only saying inappropriate things in German would help me pass the midterm...
:DDD
Basically I go to school at the regular time all week, except for Thursday, I get out early everyday, and I have Wednesday off. Maybe midterms won't be as bad as I thought.

dude, I am so sick of everyone pointing out what my flaws are, because um, actually, I already know what they are. And I am trying to fix them. But if you don't care if I change or not, whats the point? and honey, I've been trying my best to get him to consider you, but you telling me that I'm stealing him from you, is not helping yourself. because actually, I have no reason to want him. I'm quite content with what I have now, thank you.
>.<
btw, you're supposed to be one of my best friends. So stop telling me everyone hates me, because um yeah, that's not true. I'm pretty sure the people that matter, don't hate me, soooo...

wow, I was kind of a witch there, with a capital "B".
I'm just kind of pissed, so sorry.

But um other than that, today was a somewhat good day. The assembly was good for once. and I didn't have to sit through two of them! w00t! oh yeah, and everyone should join the young republicans(:

bert rhondoism.

I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry that I mess everything up for you. But I don't ever mean to.
you being happy is very important to me, but most of the things I do to try and protect you always backfire.things are so messed up for me. And I don't know how to change any of the shit I've caused. And I don't know how to apologize, because me just saying sorry and meaning it, will never be enough.
I hate how much we're alike. In some ways its great, but in a lot of other ways, it screws everything up. I'm sorry that I do things that make you angry at me. And I promise I'll consider every angle of something before I actually do it. please don't leave me. When Sarah stopped talking to me, it hurt so much. And I know it hurt you too when things messed up between the two of you. I really don't want that to happen to us. you mean so much to me. You're my support. you've saved me from suicide so many times. and losing you would just be too much.

I love you so much. and I really want things to work out.








side note. The jazz band was good tonight.
<333


As long as you're alive
Here I am- the taste of ink by the used