Did you know I love you?
This is real love, this isn't what I say when someone does something for me, or is being nice, or just themselves. This is the real deal.
I was always scared to actually love someone, but I realized that's never what I've been afraid of.
It's falling out of love that terrifies me.
Thinking you found the right person, the person who fits you, and then one day, they don't match you anymore.
Scary to think about, isn't it?
You spend all your time thinking about how you wanna spend forever with them, and you daydream, and you hope and pray. And then something happens, and you don't want to spend forever with them, and you hope and pray that they won't take it too hard.
Why does it happen?
Maybe because we're teenagers. Most teens change on a weekly basis.
If you're constantly changing, you can't find your match, because your match changes as frequently as you do.
I understand this, and I'm not letting it get in my way.
I have something on my side that most people don't.
It's weird to think about.
I am definitely not in a position to be in a relationship right now.
I have a lot of repair work to do first.
But, why on earth do I think I'm ready to be in love with someone?
I do love him, there is no doubt about that.
He is my match, and I am determined to make sure it stays that way.
I'm too much of a flirt.
I'm still working on that.
I'm still working on quite a few things.
Tearing down everything, to build it to be better than ever before.
Piece by piece, day by day.
One day, it'll all work out.
It's all about perspective.
Some people may think I'm unhappy, some will think I have a great life.
Like I've said before, I never fake happiness.
If I'm smiling, its because I feel happy.
Not because I'm covering something up.
I don't have a perfect life, I don't have a life anywhere near perfect.
But I do in fact, have a great life.
All I have is yours.
4 comments:
yeah. Most teens do happen to change consistantly especially in relationships.
But the thing is, the ones that do change consistantly, are the ones who don't think before they act or say anything.
There comes a time in a relationship where you bring it to "the next level" by saying how much stronger you feel for someone.
The people that change, say such beautiful amazing things as if it were as saying the phrase "hey."
They don't think about what they will say or said not to break the person's heart.
Most teens aren't like you and I. We have a wisdom that other teens don't have, for it is the living God's. We make wiser choices. We might have bigger hearts than most.
I don't even know why I'm saying all this but its early and so I'm keeping it.
I'm happy for you.
Continue to listen to that still small voice.
I don't know who you are.
But thank you, so much.
It really means a lot.
I'm always amazed to see how God works to reach me through other people. And you're fortunate enough to know when He is telling you to do something. And as for you, keep following in God's direction. You seem to be doing a great job so far :)
Thank you I will and I'm happy to do God's will for other's sake.
Let me tell you the truth.
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.
-Psalm 37:4
Take hold of that for it's a precious word that the Lord has promised to His people. That He cares about how we are, to love us so much, He cares for our desires. Jesus always put His people first. Above all.
You hold the living Holy Spirit in you, for you are a temple for the Lord Spirit.
You. Are. Precious. To. Him.
Don't forget it.
May Christ be with.
Always.
Meg, God creates one person specially for you. And when that happens, it's like you were never without him, that you never lost a min with him, you always knew and loved him. You find yourself laughing and smiling till it hurts and love becomes a decision in the hard times. It's not something though you would ever consider not feeling for that person. You will fight to the death and stand with that person in everything literally "till death do you part" I know you may not have seen real love yet, but it's there when two people think about one another and not themselves. I should know, I have your brother. :)
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