its not worth it in the end

I give up.
everythings falling down around me.
its all my fault.
I do this thing where I push people away when they get too close.
And I can't listen to what other people say. I have to do things my own way.
And I need you to teach me not to.
But first, you need to make sure I dont make you leave.
I don't want you to leave.



I just dont know what to do now.
you dont know how much you hurt me, and me saying it to you will never be enough.
I need you to understand. I need you to at least explain to me whats going on.
I miss you.

Feel like every chance to leave is another chance I should have took. Every minute is a mile. I've never felt so hollow.- brand new.